Saturday, February 13th, 2010 at
12:45 pm
I am not a weak, non-working, dependent kind of woman. But here are my issues- I’ve been married for 14 yrs. We have 2 kids. I have been a type 1 diabetic for 30 years. Life has wore me down. I have always pushed work in the house and out. The consent stress I think has done the most damage to me ,Health wise. My husband was physically abusive in the beginning, now he is very verbally and emotionally abusive. I am seeing the effect of his treatment to me, with the kids now. 13yr old girl and 11 yr old boy. I have to to something. Even when I was younger and stronger, Living alone, working full-time. I could not pay for health insurance. To big of a chunk of the pay check. But I could get by with the basics I needed to stay alive, with my diabetic supplies. Things are not the same now. You need a presciption for the most basic things, You can’t even buy a bottle of insulin without one now. Not to mention now I’m on an insulin pump, my supplies alone are over 0 every 3 months, that is without the cost of medications. This summer I have cut back on my very stress filled job, because in the last 2 yrs my weight has dropped a lot, most of the time I am nauseous and can’t eat. When I do force food, I do not gain anything. My diabetes is in good control. Which makes most Dr’s think everything is good. But its not. I have severe pain on my right side, most of the time. A lot of other things too. The fact is I need some serious Dr’ing. Now. I have a big Dr apt next week. But with my health how can I survive? On one income. My kids want and need to be with me. Child support will not be enough. In MN with divorce, everything is based equally. My health issues are not an issue that will make a difference, a lawyer has told me this already. I think if I leave, the struggle for survival alone will kill me fast. But if I stay, the day in day out stresses of my marriage will kill me slower, but hurt my kids development completely. My 13 yr old already acts like a rug. My 11 yr old son is disrespectful to all women. I know this is from watching my husband and myself. It is tearing me apart. Any advice would be great. I don’t know where to turn. Family help is not an Option, I’m on my own.
Help is unfound, my kidneys are permentaly damaged by time, but untill they r not funtioning I do not qualify for Med help. From any areas of goverment help. Welfare, social security, SSI, disability I think they are a joke, Their ideas of the basics for living may work for someone who has no vehicle, no need to drive, about a 0 house/rent payment and no heat and utilitys payment due. Their help is not realistic for this world. I’m 36 feel ready to give up and die. My body is ageing badley with time. I’m exhausted.
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